I know it’s the wee hours of Thursday morning, I just didn’t have the chance to write this on yesterday. I was hoping to be able to combine it with the theme of Tuesday @ 10, and I think it works well:
Defining Moment
See, I’ve recently been really ill.
(Aside from getting over a nasty cold) for about the past month, I have been pretty sure my body was falling apart – somedays, I was almost certain death was immanent…
Ok, so it wasn’t quite so drastic, but some drastic things were happening in my body, including pain so bad in my mouth (think: razor blades & fire) I could barely eat. That among other symptoms led to me dropping weight – drastically.
[I’d like to point out here, as miserable as it made me, I did force myself to eat whenever I possibly could].
During this illness, I did what any respectable American with Google would do: I took to the interwebs!
I was pretty sure I found my answer – Candida, yeast. It was a problem before in my life, and looked like it was posing even greater problems now. (For those that don’t know, this is a case where bad bacteria outgrow the good bacteria in your digestive tract. Overgrowth can lead to all sorts of issues – cue my body falling apart from head to toe).
(In case you’re wondering, it is as gross as it all sounds – especially the mouth stuff).
Fear not, dear friends, I did go to the doctor & his verdict was similar:
bad bacteria
&
stress
The scariest part for me is that in the course of 3 weeks I’ve lost almost 10 pounds, and the first 4 lbs of that happened in the span of 5 days.
Now, while this means I have decimated my first two mini goals (minus the date…), it also means my body is losing too quickly, and with it, many important nutrients.
This isn’t the first time I have seen the effect of yeast in my life, but this time, it’s serious to me. It’s an issue that has been exacerbated by other illnesses in my life, and it plays into certain illnesses I get now.
Combating this, getting it and keeping it under control, is going to take some serious lifestyle restructuring.
So, I’m doing it.
Slowly
But, I’m doing it.
I have other big, stressful changes coming up – a move & job hunt halfway across the country – so I know this one will move slowly.
This isn’t an overnight problem with an overnight solution, but I am ready to make these changes. To become the healthiest me I can be. (changes I undoubtedly should have made long ago…)
So, this illness, if nothing else, has jumpstarted the next phase of my life; and inadvertently, the next phase of my weight-loss experience.
Now, I have the motivation to finally keep it up:
I don’t want to be miserable &
I don’t want to die…
#ProHealth
Keep a look out for further posts on my cross country move, my transition to a more natural, healthy lifestyle, and how I’ve managed to keep it up all at once. After all:
Life is about the journey, not the destination.