Here we are at the end of the month…and I didn’t write every day…and I don’t know exactly how well I stuck to the theme I chose.
But, it’s my blog, so that’s really ok with me. Besides, when you’re a rare, chronically single Unicorn, basically every post is a #SingleLife post.
Today, I want to get a little deep, a little serious, though.
Because, honestly, there have been a lot of thoughts going through my head today, and they fill up more time than 5 minutes, for sure.
See, as I’m in this waiting period, I have to be preparing myself, as we’ve talked about before.
And, as a non-feminist feminist, I feel I have a lot of preparing to do.
I believe in freedom for women & men alike, otherwise, what did Christ die for?
I believe in being fairly paid for a job I do, based on experience, time, & training, regardless of my sex/gender (which, I feel the Proverbs 31 woman would probably agree).
I believe in mutual submission (you know, Ephesians 5 stuff)…but –
And, this is a big BUT –
My submission is called to be different than his.
Mine revolves around due respect, of him, of his position, of our relationship, and of Christ’s headship over both of us.
His revolves around the command to love & sacrifice, caring for me as Christ does his church.
At it’s core, submission has more to do with our position related to Christ than to one another, because in our position related to Christ we find our position related to one another.
The thing is: I want to submit.
For someone as fiercely independent as myself, career woman, driven and ambitious, I know that sounds strange.
However, if a man is honestly following Christ, living as Christ asks, he will be easy to submit to. My submission will just be natural, honoring him & Christ. Our lives will be a reflection of that. Our motivation & direction will be the same.
Here’s the kicker: if I choose wrong, I’m still called to a life of submission.
Which is why I’m still single…
Because I refuse to submit to just any old body. Now, some say I am too picky.
Waiting for someone as passionate about God’s will as I am.
Waiting for someone who wants to be actively involved in ministry.
Waiting for someone who seeks a life active in travel and sharing God in more than one place.
Waiting for someone who is moving in the same direction as I am, with an end goal at the foot of the throne.
Too picky? False.
I want to be obedient to Christ. I want to submit.
Honestly, I am looking forward to letting someone else take the lead for a while…I’ve been doing it for nearly 2 decades now, so I’d be willing to allow someone else to take over. But, just as I’m preparing myself, he has to be prepared, also.
So, until then, I will continue to wait, pray, and prepare.
Until then, I will be passionate and faithful, learning to be even more so in the small things (otherwise, He can’t trust me to be faithful with the bigger things, but that’s a post for a future evening).